I'm in a blue funk and even an evening out with my 'girls' from work didn't help to elevate my mood. Maybe it was hearing the latest budget woes for the city and the library department that has set this downward trend in my soul. I don't know.....
In a weird way I hope I do get a pink slip, it would be a kick in the pants, a new beginning, a push to move outside this comfortable life I have created. This cocoon I've placed myself in that I've effectively kept all others out of...yeah, I'm talking men now! Locally I'm attracked to a man who is not available and that is a first for me. Then in recent trips to Florida I've reconnected to two men I've known a long time and have felt connections with both of them. I just feel like I need a BIG change in my life and don't know what to do or how to do it.
I've spent a lot time time with my 22 year-old niece lately and been reading the blog of another soon-to-be 25 year-old niece and I've been jealous of where they are in life! They have so much yet to do, so much to look forward to...
Blah, Blah, Blah, I really need to snap out of it! I wouldn't even read this pity-party if I were you!
4 years ago
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Ah, the signs of an existential crisis are everywhere. I know, I've been in one for years. Thanks for so much honesty. It's more refreshing than depressing to read this. You are facing deep longings and urges. Wanting more from yourself and life. Good for you. Don't wait for a miracle to happen. They rarely do. Harrison Ford was once asked if he believed in the Force. He said, "No, I believe in forcing yourself." Not much comfort there but pretty damn good advice.
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