Memorial Day

All day today I've tried not to remember but to look forward, well it didn't work. I went for a long walk this morning and my mind kept wandering back to happier days in my life. I know Memorial Day is meant to honor our nation's war heroes but it is hard not to personalize it a bit. I thought about my dad and how my life might have been different had he lived longer. I also reminiscenced about lost love. It might have made me sad for a moment but it ended up making me feel good. Sometimes you do have to look backwards in order to move forward.

To all you scrapbookers out there I can only say 'YOU ARE CRAZY!' I was charged with making a scrapbook out of about 40 photos of our library director who will retire tomorrow. I spent over $100 on supplies and it took me more than 9 hours to put it all together. That's just nuts!!!! But I must say, it did turn out pretty good, but then I'm clearly no expert. The satisfaction of finishing it is still with me and it I can't wait to see what my colleagues think of it tomorrow.

Panic sets in

As I do at this time every year I panic inside as the beginning of summer reading season descends. Saturday is the big day and I'm nervous about the new database and the new program format. I do have high hopes that it will all go well--send good karma my way!

Personally I've hit my longest run in the 'dating the same person' category. I've know him for over a year but it's been on and off a couple of times. Lately we've spent a lot of time together and this is the point where I usually hit the road...you know, run for the hills. It's getting serious so it's time to get the hell out. Hmmm, for now I'm just treading water not making any decisions. When did I become such a wimp?