Tootsie Pops

If you have Tootsie Pops in your life all is well. That's what I've decided this week! I took some to the Rangers Baseball game last night and shared them with all the kids in our group and they got so excited for such a small treat. It made me reevaluate the power-of-the-pop. Is there symbolism in working your way through the hard outer shell to the chocolatey-chewy center? I'd say yes to that today.

Still no gratitude from the teens and now, over two weeks later, I thought I'd at least hear from my sister as I sent home a gift for her; but I guess that apples really don't fall far from the tree!

boost from a friend

It's great how a few kind, heart-felt words can help you feel so much better. Sometimes it is better to stop talking to the mirror and go back to relying on your friends. Thanks Lily and Sherri for the in-person and virtual pick-me-up!

I also had a reaffirming experience at dinner Monday night with a friend. Girl-talk is so underrated. It should be sold by the bottle. Thanks for listening and for the referrals Alei!

I have spent many an evening this week IMing with another friend and the intellectual stimulation, true emotion, hilarious typos and funny one-liners have been a highlight of my pre-bed routine. You know who you are....thanks for the friendship.

I've started a new routine on my days off....I go to the pool, swim a little and take in a little vitamin D. This little bit of 'me' time is new and I'm starting to like it a lot. It is a time to be quiet as I'm the only person at the pool, a time to reflect and a time to re energize. Who needs drugs when you have the sun, a pool and great friends!

chicken shit

Yep, did you know that I'm a chicken? Well, I chickened out last night and didn't go to the 'new members icebreaker' with Events and Adventures. I just stayed home and pouted. I was in a foul mood and tired and fat and ugly and was having a bad hair day, had chipped a toenail...and I'm sure if I sit her long enough I can come up with even better excuses than those. But the long and short of it is; I'm a chicken shit.

great expectations

Evidently I was too harsh and my expectations were too high! I've been told I never should have expected gratitude for my hospitality from teenagers. BUT I was assured that they would 'remember their visit for the rest of their lives' by a very wise woman. Am I shallow because I don't believe that right now? I like to live in hope so maybe it will be true after all.

I'm still pissed off a little bit.

Thank you

Thank You are two very powerful words. They become even more meaningful when you don't hear them! I just spent a full week with my niece and her friend and neither of them thanked me for the many meals I provided, movies we went to, pedicure we got....actually they never thanked me for anything and I'm really pissed off. I'm mad at myself for not calling them on it. I'm disappointed that their parents didn't teach them better. I'm angry that I let myself be trapped by two spoiled, entitled teenagers who obviously have everything handed to them and have come to expect it from everyone. I've been robbed of what should have been a great bonding experience, like I had with another niece that I helped move recently. I'm sad, so sad that I wasted a week of my life trying to entertain them and make them happy. Finally, I'm so tired and poor since I spent 3 months worth of my budget on one week trying to be the good aunt. The hell with that......never again. Lesson LEARNED!

Oreos and Doritos!

Isabel and Linda have been with me for 4.5 days now and it's been fun. During our trip to the grocery store we 'needed' many things that I never buy! But the one thing I should have purchased was extra toliet paper.....someone should have warned me that two teenaged girls would use three months worth of toliet paper in 4 days. How does that happen???

We had a great time at Neiman's yesterday getting make-overs, they worked for two days at the Central Library and we've gone to a movie. Today we hung out by the pool and are headed to another movie/mall experience. I'm completely broke from just feeding them so there isn't a lot of buying going on at the mall, but we have had loads of laughs trying on fun clothes and stiletto heels!

I hope they finish the Oreos and Doritos before they leave.....